Friends on the internet. I haven’t been feeling like myself lately.
I spend too much time on social media, have a low motivation to write (or do anything), and can’t seem to make myself work out, tweet, or do anything productive.
This feels like depression.
I’m also beginning to resent my job. Before I disliked my job, but I continued it because it seems like the easiest way, I know to make 100K a year. Now I’m starting to hate it.
I regret waking up in the morning to play around with the computer.
I regret spending my time doing meaningless tasks for people that I don’t know.
I rarely get human contact. I’m not having fun.
So, what’s next?
I feel the best way to break this streak is to put myself into new situations. Go out and try new things, explore unfamiliar places, and meet new people. That’s not the easiest thing to do during a global pandemic, but I need to push myself.
The good news is that the future looks brighter than the past. I’m starting to do new stuff and try new things. I’m learning from the “retired” people that I know. They seem busier than the employed office drones. They also seem happier.
What’s their secret?
I think part of it comes with experience, the other part comes with freedom. The biggest difference is these people seem to live with a tranquil purpose. They made peace with their lives and abilities, interests, desires, and possessions. I’m praying that I’ll do the same.
I’ll be back soon with more content.
Here’s to new beginnings and happier endings.
I’ll be back soon with more content, in the meantime here’s a picture of my dog:
